Reflections...

With all the problems I have in mind making me stronger and with all the blessings I have so far leading me to be more appreciative, I think God deserves  my sacrifice.  

Honestly, In my twenty years of existence this was just the second "Bisita Iglesia" I have ever did so far. This journey helped me to realize that this world is not just about money and all the material things. In fact, it is how we live for a purpose and continue to be not just a man of substance, but, also of value. This journey enlightened me how blessed am I of having a body without sickness because I have seen a lot of people in churches who are in solitude because of the whatsoever-critical-illness they are fighting for. This walk woke me up, that all of the materials things we possessed are actually invaluable at some point. I don't want to act as   such I am a perfect individual and actually, I am not comfortable speaking ( I mean writing this words ) and sharing this stuffs. 

We trod the path all the way from Recto to Quiapo. I was really fascinated by people who walked long , very long just to get there, and take note, there were also young ones who participated in the said annual sacrifice. According to my friends, they came from provinces and it has been their way of showing their devotion (panata) every Semana Santa. 

Gladly, there were kind-hearted people who are giving foods to those who came from provinces.   This thing has really showed how caring Filipinos are with their fellows. 

Merchants were scattered all over the places selling relics, goodies, tee shirts and etc.

Second Destination is San Sebastian Church

Since this church has a very wide space, I was given a chance to make a tumbling shot. Yipeee.!!!

There was also a group of men who asked me a favor to take a picture of them. Surprisingly, one of them then asked my Facebook account so they can tag themselves (huh?) and I just gave it right away. Maybe it was a good omen for me. I don't know :D

Third Destination is National Shrine of St. Jude Thaddeus

Fourth Destination is Parokya ng Mahal na Birhen ng Loreto

Supposedly, we have another destination, but unfortunately the weather was not good that time, so we  have just  decided to take our lunch. We searched for a restaurant, but unfortunately, since it was Good Friday, most of the establishments were closed. So we decided to eat in a Fast food chain in which I have long been missing ahhahaha. Tarrararan Jollibee! (LOL)

All the way from my Maundy Thursday shift at work until Friday noon.. we were really very tired but feels like reinvigorated.

So hungry,:D

I ended up like literally finished drinking these 4 glasses of water and a glass of soda.

REALLY A GREAT EXPERIENCE.. 

I Am Moving..

I love my progress so far.. I have been conquering this innate feeling for a special person for quite some time now. It's not beacause I am not ready yet, but It's just that I know when to invest on something and what is feasible or not. They say that love is not about expecting but giving, you must give yourself without waiting anything in return. But I have realized that when you are giving something, you are not actually expecting in return, you are actually NEEDING part of your love be backed and we cannot help it. WE are needing their love to give more. That's the way it should be. 

To give you guys (those who don't know me personally) a short story of this drama, I have a special friend whom I considered really special, special to a point that I considered our relationship as more than friends but less than lovers. That's actually what others called a Pseudo-Relationship. In this relationship, there's this relationship without commitments, but It was never a no strings attached drama because, A pseudo-relationship is just lacking a communication with a real score for so many reasons. At first, I find myself contented in this set-up. Whenever friends ask me who is he, I say "just a friend" and there's smile in my face making them believe that there's more  in "us" than meets the eye. Oh I'm sorry I used the word "us" (there's actually no "us" yet in this relationship). You would probably asked me now, then what goes wrong to break this love now? Suddenly, he changed and he found another one. Suddenly, the question of "us" seemed to be obscure. Since there was no clear communication of our real score, I have no right to demand. I am not in the position to make an argument and to ask at least for his time. It is the batle between me and my feelings just me and me. I was just a became a choice. I was nothing now. I felt like I am just a thing that he has once played.

Sometimes, when we are in love we are blinded by the joy and happiness it brings to our life and that what makes our life complicated. We actually seeing the complications that it may bring but we just never mind it. I have made it as a choice somehow, sometime. I actually enjoyed the "present moment" and then bahala na.. But I found myself hurting myself more badly. Ganun talaga, The road to hell is paved with good intentions and when you are victimized by these fake stones and shining metals you will just find yourself pitying because what hurts the most is being so close just close period. 

Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but it is also setting yourself from all the bitterness, hatred, and anger that you keep in your heart.Sabi nga ni Whitney Houston "Learning to love yourself, It is the greatest love of all."

I decided to stop this foolishness. The greatest mistake we'll make in a relationship is when we look at somebody else other than our partner to satisfy our emotional and physical needs, The second mistake is when we consciously allow ourselves to be the object of these emotional and physical desires. Never allow anyone even if that is the person you love the most.

Until now, I am happy that I was able to conquer this emotions little by little. I know time will surely heal all the bruises in my heart. After all, God has never given us problems we cannot bear. And I know, there is a right person for me, and maybe it is not just the right time. Whoever you are, I will wait for you. :D