An Open Letter to My Mom

Dear Nanay,

                   Everyone is against you. I know because you are just a second wife. The world turned its scrutinizing eyes on you, when you decided to be with tatay. Some of our relatives judged you because you are not as rich as they are, nor you cannot easily understand things as they can because you just came from nowhere. But despite all this, I want to thank you for everything, for all the hardships that you have gone through just to keep me in school. Yes, you have flaws I must say who does not have?

                   I admit, there was a time in my life that I doubted your love. I was a rebel. I hated you for being who you are because I know that I never deserved the life I have gone through before. I am sorry for that. I was ashamed of you that's why I have never invited friends for a wine party nor I have informed you when we have school gatherings and there's a need for parents participation. I am really sorry. No words can really describe how regretful I am for being such... 

                   Can you still remember when you were still teaching me how to stand and pee on my own and cleanse my asterisk (*) when I pooped ? Can you still remember when you were making sermon because I did not glance right and left when for the second time I crossed the street. Can you still remember my 7th birthday cake that I requested? Can you still remember those special times when I was still little and you were spoon-feeding everything to me? Those were the times that I will never forget. 

                  Now that I am living independently and weaving my life on my own, I understand you. All of your "pangaral", all of those I thought "pagbubunganga" , It's all true when you said that you know what is best for me. I know that I patched all these things up, when you attended my graduation day with a head held high because your son is Cum Laude. I was a better person because of you. I am sorry and I really really love you. I  always say it to you right? But since you are not used to what I am now (caring and sweet daughter/son ahhaha), you responded so little. But It's okay I know it's awkward.. hahaha so corny..

                    Although I told you that I loved you too, it wasn't enough for me.They were only words, only a throw-away, over-used phrase. So I hoped that somehow something inside you had always known that I loved you, that I loved you unconditionally and that it was impossible for me to not love you because you were my mother and there was part of me that is also a part of you-my heart :D Happy Mother's Day

                                                                                                                                                                               Nagmamahal,

Ang iyong bunso Masyong.

On Joining Biggest Loser Challenge...

Finally, I am a certified biggest loser challenger.. yesterday we took a lot of tests that would measure our current health condition like Body Mass Index, Fasting Blood Sugar, Cholesterol Blood Count and Medical consultations sponsored by Maxicare and ActiveLink. We also attended seminar about health and wellness which was prepared by Gold's Gym. 

Gold's Gym also sponsored this one of the newest ways on how to lose weight Zumba!. Of course I tried it, even if I will sweat a lot (Mind you, I still have a shift after.. yuck) .. 

Seriously, back when I was in college I always blame my genetic formation for being fat. Now that I'm matured, I wanted to show the world that being fat is a choice. I will take it as an opportune time for me not just to be healthy physically but also to be well-rounded individual. After all, Life is a lot easier when you are lighter.

First Time

One can say that the most unforgettable moments in our life are actually those first-time-experiences in which I believe is true. Some may never forget their first day in highschool, their first-crush encounter, first boyfriend ,First menstrual experience, first sexperience and many many more. That is why I also want to share this first time experiences. Last weekend, I was so occupied by many activities in which I was actually both a little bit upset and happy and satisfied.

First Major Hosting Experience

Hosting is probably the most wanted talent I wanted to have (pardon my redundancy). It is not really my first time to be a host. Back when I was in college, as much as I wanted to be socially active, I engaged myself with a lot of extra-curricular and social activities in school and in community. So I was requested many many times in debuts and parties and seminars. I have flaws yes, but I never felt  like-any-dumber until last Saturday in our Quarterly Town Hall Meeting. I was such a disappointment. But anyways, All of this cold-stuffs were vanished into the air when the Canadian-Group of Benefits Director and my Team Leader hugged me. I think most if not all of the audience enjoyed the event :D.

First Intramuros Escapade

Many of my friends if not all will probably raise their eyebrows upon reading this blog (OMG si Gelo/J-Lo,Masyong ngayon pa lang nakapunta sa Intramuros??/) O yes It was a trivia indeed. Prior to that major hosting job and a great buffet experience with Belore (Sana binabayaran ako ng Belore di ba??) Khat and I have long planned to go in Intramuros. I was really really fascinated  of how this walled city was built many years ago. Good thing that, It was well maintained and organized by our government. Of course we did some shots  

There were also tourists from other countries who are so interested in discovering more about places like Philippines. I remembered there was an asian man ( I don't know if he is Japanese or Korean) who approached me. I thought he wanted to make a pose with Khat but he just asked if I can take him a shot. I gave the camera to Khat since she was better than me when it comes to photography. After that, he bid goodbye. I called him "Mr. Somewhere down the road" because I know our roads will gonna cross again haha ...

We also visited the place where Rizal was incarcerated prior to his execution on December 30, 1898. 

Of Course here's my special tumbling shot.. Yahoo!

We ended up in a posh coffee shop nearby ..

First Ice Skating Experience

When I was a child I wanted what many other Filipino children wanted to be. I wanted to be blonde, blue-eyed, and white like Patricia Evangelista. It was a childhood dream to see outside my window not raining but snowing and then I will ice skate forever and ever. I realized that the first would cost me thousands of bucks... So I just keep on dreaming for the second and now it was granted...yipee 

Our first times will not always be as blissful and as happy as what we are expecting. If it is, then good for us. If it is not, better for us because at least we learned something. Learning is the glory that our first times contribute to ourselves, to our personality. With these things, life is indeed worth living for.