An Open Letter to My Mom

Dear Nanay,

                   Everyone is against you. I know because you are just a second wife. The world turned its scrutinizing eyes on you, when you decided to be with tatay. Some of our relatives judged you because you are not as rich as they are, nor you cannot easily understand things as they can because you just came from nowhere. But despite all this, I want to thank you for everything, for all the hardships that you have gone through just to keep me in school. Yes, you have flaws I must say who does not have?

                   I admit, there was a time in my life that I doubted your love. I was a rebel. I hated you for being who you are because I know that I never deserved the life I have gone through before. I am sorry for that. I was ashamed of you that's why I have never invited friends for a wine party nor I have informed you when we have school gatherings and there's a need for parents participation. I am really sorry. No words can really describe how regretful I am for being such... 

                   Can you still remember when you were still teaching me how to stand and pee on my own and cleanse my asterisk (*) when I pooped ? Can you still remember when you were making sermon because I did not glance right and left when for the second time I crossed the street. Can you still remember my 7th birthday cake that I requested? Can you still remember those special times when I was still little and you were spoon-feeding everything to me? Those were the times that I will never forget. 

                  Now that I am living independently and weaving my life on my own, I understand you. All of your "pangaral", all of those I thought "pagbubunganga" , It's all true when you said that you know what is best for me. I know that I patched all these things up, when you attended my graduation day with a head held high because your son is Cum Laude. I was a better person because of you. I am sorry and I really really love you. I  always say it to you right? But since you are not used to what I am now (caring and sweet daughter/son ahhaha), you responded so little. But It's okay I know it's awkward.. hahaha so corny..

                    Although I told you that I loved you too, it wasn't enough for me.They were only words, only a throw-away, over-used phrase. So I hoped that somehow something inside you had always known that I loved you, that I loved you unconditionally and that it was impossible for me to not love you because you were my mother and there was part of me that is also a part of you-my heart :D Happy Mother's Day

                                                                                                                                                                               Nagmamahal,

Ang iyong bunso Masyong.