The Love of Siam

My good roommate recommended me this movie of Mario Maurer (Yes! No more no less The Asian Superstar). This is the third best movie that I have ever watched so far at least for me next to Titanic and I Miss You Like Crazy. Maybe because I was able to relate to the story. Most of the scenes have no dialogue but Mew and Tong were able to express those emotions. 

 
I did not made this blogpost for the sake of super late movie review but just to share you the thoughts that I find so poetic and dramatic. I know, you guys know that I really love drama so as poems.

"Frightening Loneliness"

What do you mean " frightening loneliness"? 

It is like when we were younger

We were so lonely 

because we did not have a lot of friends

And now that we are grown-up

Loneliness is just so much worse

Why is it so bad for you?

I don't know how to explain it 

It started during summer

When I was in 8th grade

Papa took grandma somewhere for several days

And when she came back...

The longer someone you love is gone

The more I miss her

So I have one question

If we love someone  so much,

How we'll be able to handle it on the day

when we get separated?

And if being separated is part of life,

Is it possible that we can love someone

and never be afraid of losing them?

At the same time, I am also wondering 

Is it possible that we can love our entire life 

without loving anyone at all?

That is my loneliness

I fear that it will continue to get worse.

I can't be with you as your boyfriend 

but it does not mean that I do not love you.

We always have choices. Sometimes we choose for ourselves, sometimes for others. Others understand while some don't. It is really hard to accept the fact that "Sometimes the best way to love a person is by not loving him at all.". Acceptance does not happen overnight, It is a process, it is a journey.

Click here to watch the full movie.

Note: I do not own this video, I just find it there in youtube.  I hope you could watch this movie. Happy viewing!

Good Vibes this Monday!

A Note from my Old Diary

 July 11, 2011

   If there is one more thing that most of my friends do not know about me is that I am always having difficulty in handling break-ups and separations, most especially when that person-on-leave is very close to me. That is why sometimes I hate relationship, friendship and closeness.

        I know that three years does not give a guarantee of another single day... Meron ngang iba naghihiwalay after 20 years of relationship. That is exactly my weakness, I am not prepared as always because I believe that "preparation" will just build a wall of rejection and resentment.

       I have tried it though. Back when I was in college, I mean first year college, I didn't have enemies so as close friends. I prefer that one, so when someone bids goodbye moving forward would not be as damn-hard unlike what I am feeling at this point. But everything goes beyond my control, friendship grows and Here I am again, encouraging myself, saying same words I've said five years ago.

       I realized that no matter how we want to control things the way we wanted it to be, there are still things that is "out of our faculties". Sabi nga sa text ng cousin ko, "Things fall apart so other things will fall together and it happens for a reason."

      I love drama not unless I am the actress. I leave it already to him, bahala na si God, for now I will just urinate all the beer that I  consumed last night. :-((

       

Destiny is that you?

Destiny is that you who knocks at my doorstep?
            is that you who shared the same interests?
                            who sleeps in a weird position?
                                              with a weird look?
                                                     a guy?
                                                     sigh!




  

Notes from a friend:One of the most misused words in the En...

Notes from a friend:            One of the most misused words in the En...:            One of the most misused words in the English language today is the word "love". In most songs which we hear today, "love" means "...

Orosa-Nakpil Malate by Louie Mar Gangcuangco

Today is Thanksgiving Day in Canada which means another celebrated holiday not just for Canadians but also for someone like me who works in a Canadian Acount-BPO. And for this day I did not set any schedule for hang-outs and meet-ups. I really vacated this day for me to rest and hibernate until my roommate lent me this book of both art and science.  I have always been a fan of Philippine Literature, and some remarkable writers have noted special brand on it and Dr. Louie Mar Guangcangco is included in my list. Though it is a little outdated to make a book review, I don't care.

Orosa-Nakpil Malate shows us the modern approach of how these people from third sex express themselves now from their different orientations and preferences to their emotions, social acceptance and individual expressions. It also explains topics on social issues like HIV, AIDS and other Sexually Transmiited Diseases (STD) in a most comprehensive way.

I love how the elements of love, friendship and betrayals play in the story. The writer really knows how to play twists and unpredictable sequences in the story that makes me think that it really happened based on a true story. Its realistic story-telling about failed relationship of "Celso and Dave" mirrors most of the LGBT community who experience a fast-paced love affair and play.

I really love the part where Dave discovered that his true love Ross did not betray him but instead took a toll on how he will give Dave justice by what Celso and Vincent did (Vincent raped Dave and Celso put him in ridicule when he spread the defamatory news that Dave had AIDS/HIV). Though at some point, you would conclude that spreading those infectious diseases to the ones you hated is unfair and unjust.

Mostly, I'm a bit proud of Dr. Gangcuangco on how he elevated the status of gay men in the story. Dave, despite the social intimidation about his gender and sexuality finds a way on how to reach his goals and become succesful in which in the end his family and community became proud of him when he graduated Magna CumLaude in UP College of Medicine and took the top two spot in licensure exam for physicians.

After reading this, I learned that love can also be found in a most unpredictable way. I hope I could find my own Ross but I thank God that I have Dana and Malou in my life. :D I hope you could read this novel.

September's Tirade!

September has been the most stressful month for me this year so far. Series of betrayals occupied my mind and heart that I was so stressed like a magma seeking crevice to come out from its hiding. I have been betrayed by a "friend" in a time where I needed her the most. And when the time came when everyone was so indifferent with her, there she is playing games with me again. What a fair weather friend! I realized that trust and true friendship are expensive gift and you cannot expect these things to come from cheap people like her. At least, I discovered what the real she is. 

September was also the  month where i mostly judged by the people who I truly expect would trust me. I keep secrets and I really do. You cannot really please everybody. Now that I spend time alone, I found myself comfortable with my own identity without thinking of pleasing others or those who were disappointed.    

(Sigh!) I just hope that October will be generous enough for me.Welcome Positivity.. Pray.Pray.Pray! :D

What I am looking forward to this week!

1. New Roommate

         Yihaaa! It has been four months since my roommate who is my friend left me. I was really so sad because honestly I think I cannot live alone, can I?  So there, I decided to publish and advertise the vacancy on line. I had doubts back then because I did not expect all peeps around me to be so nice and good. However, I also see it as an opportunity for me to have a new friend. And today if not tomorrow will be his first day here. I am just so excited to be his friend. I hope we can be friends. According to him, he is a registered pharmacist who works in a very respectable company worldwide here in UP Techno-Hub.  I was able to know his name because the care-taker of this boarding house listed it in their record. So here I am googling his name, just so excited to know that he is also a blogger. I think we have so many  things to share. Haay I just hope we can get along well.

2. Internal Job Application

        I applied as Portfolio Reconciliation Analyst in the same company where I am working for almost one and a half year now. It was crucial because before it goes to the team manager of the division where you are applying for, It will be subjected for approval of your team leader to senior team leader and of course the director of the whole division where I belong. I waited for so long for this  opportunity though it was opened long long before, I just let it passed because I did not meet the qualification where in you must be one year tenured in your present team. So when I got the invitation for my interview, my heart bumped as if it will come out of my chest. Now that I am waiting for the result, It is much more of the intensity of a magnitude 20 earthquake. If I pass, I thank God, If I won't pass , I will still thank God. Though I am a bit not confident for the result, I just hope God will always give me strength. Surely he will. :D Whatever happens I am now ready.

Lamentation of Deprivation...

Someone emailed me that blogging and social networking functions of Multiply will now be abolished because the management is thinking that other sites may serve well their patriots better. So I immediately visited my blog there and found out my old poems back in 2009. Let me tell you the story of this poem. I was once fell in love to a very intelligent guy when I was in high school. We never had private conversations till I got his number and then I introduced myself as a girl, and the rest were just lies. I made friendster account and uploaded somebody else's photos. I felt guilty about it only when I found out that this guy also fell in love in me (who is actually not me..) Then I found myself telling him who is the real me.  It was actually painful for someone who was very in love when the one you are in love with is in love to a person you are not. I was proud that I did the right thing that I told him who I really am. I learned that living a life with no pretensions is part of the road to happiness. I hope you will enjoy this one.

If Only..

I never know things will get worse

Even if all I know is to do my best
How weird it is to lie awake
I said I am happy , but my smile is fake.

How could I find words like "I am sorry"
If after, I have to say "Please stay baby"
How could I say "I love you"
If he already said "I hate you"

If only I could stop the clock
or perhaps push back its tic tac
I would gather all my courage
to show you that my love never really changed.

One lesson that I learned
that being true to myself should take
because what you think that is finger away
maybe will be now million miles away..

I did push you on the limit,
Cold, harsh truth, I cannot tell it
For now, I just want to cry it
To take away all the heartache.

I am sorry, I really really sorry
Sorry for myself to lose you
Sorry for you, because I fooled you
Even if I don't intend to

I admit I deserve it
Maybe it is karma for what I did
That's life like a pure red rose
We cannot accept its beauty without thorns.

When helping is just an Image?

"Some are dressed in cutesy sportswear, and they are taking pictures like they are really "Cool Volunteers". They stayed in 30 minutes then left. We felt so insulted to be used as props for their photo ops just so they could be "cool volunteers". And this is why I am almost allergic when it comes to self promoters on social media."-- Patty Laurel...

This morning after the 08-07-12 rainy day and night, I actually checked out news and all the stuff related to yesterday's tragic incident (I don't know if today will still be tragic) I read news through social media sites and  websites that I used to be updated since I have no AM Radio or TV here in my boarding house. I actually seeing peeps like the policemen carrying old men, member of Philippine Coastguard helping those who are stranded in flooded places, social workers of DSWD who are the most needed in times of disasters like this one. I salute them for being so sacrificing that instead of being with their family, keeping them safe,here they are in action helping those who are in need.

I read Patty's blog and read her latest article. Like her, I am also angry to those "pakitang-tao" na mga tao. Just to be called "Cool Volunteers", "Charitable", will use events and those who are in need just for their photo ops. I know one when I see one. True colors will always show no matter how you hide it. What I hate the most are those pa-nice effect... Kudos to those helping is what they really want to do! To those who want to really help and share their life,(though I am not that active in their organization), I recommend "U Happy Events" they also did partnerships with other businesses. They have activities and programs. For now they need your help.They are mobilizing team for relief efforts for in  Tawi Tawi and Santos in Cainta Rizal, Philippines

If helping from manila:

2 drop off points of donations - Ortigas c/o Kuya Harvard Uy de Baron @ 2610 Raffles Center F. Ortigas Road, Ortigas Pasig and Makati c/o Rob del Rosario @ 15A Edades Street San Lorenzo Makati.

If helping from overseas:

While in-kind donations are good, we currently have limited means to ship them to Manila (as these may be costlier). We are seeking for financial aid instead so we could purchase the needs of the families affected. Cash donations can be done throughhttp://

ushare.uhappyevents.com/

UPDATE: Click here if you want to know about UhappyEvents

Bakit Single Status Mo??

Well, I was supposed to use this avenue only for my personal and authenticated "ME" articles... but I can't help but also to share this stuff. Most of my friends knew that I love reading as much as I love eating.. Someone e-mailed me this article without the author's name. I just find it interesting and thus I want to share this article to you guys. I hope you'll enjoy reading this some kind of novelty-should-I-say-but-TRUE thoughts. Note, I did not edit anything I just inserted some pictures. Thanks for those pictures Mr. Google, anyway I think it is for public consumption and you don't have to worry I included their respective sources :D

 10. Destiny Adik 

Eto yung mga naghihintay kay "Destiny" na gumawa ng paraan para pagtagpuin sila ng kanilang mga "partner in life"... Ayannn... Kapapanood nyo ng "Serendipity / The Notebook / Dear John / If Only / Lake House" eh feeling nila ang nangyari sa movie eh mangyayari rin sa kanila... Such a cliche... Hindi ba nila alam na kung walang effort, destiny is useless... 

 9. Perfectionist/ Mapili (photo by steseay.com)

Yes, isang taong perpeksiyonista. .. Yung tipong dapat ganito ang magiging kapartner ko... Pag may nakilala, nakita lang na pangit ang kuko o may dumi lang, turn-off na agad... 

O kaya ang daming ayaw. Ayaw sa mabait - boring daw, gusto ng bad boy/pilya pero kapag pinaiyak ka, tatanungin ka bakit ang sama mo at bakit mo nagawa yun! Adik ka ba?! Ayaw sa cute, ayaw din naman sa panget. Meron dyan gusto ka ayaw mo naman. Ung gusto mo eh halosmagtambling ka pero deadma pa rin yang stunts mo sa kanya! Pasaway ka rin e! Ano ba talaga kuya? 

8. Busy-busyhan (photo by alorachistiakoff.com)

Opo, eto yung ang mundo e gumagalaw lang sa libro at ballpen kung estudyante ka o kaya naman sa computer at files kung office staff ka. Yung tipong aalis ng bahay ng alas 6 o alas 7 ng umaga at uuwi ng bahay ng 6 hanggang alas 8 ng gabi [baligtad naman para sa mga nag tratrabaho sa call center].. Sabay tulog na.. Kapag Sabado masaya na sila sa Internet (Facebook), sa pagkain na niluluto ni mama at sa Linggo naman sisimba at maghahanda na ng kelangan para sa lunes hanggang byernes.. Pssssst.. Pause for awhile.. 

 

7. Friendship Theory 

Ano naman ito? Eto yung ang buhay ay kay bestfriend o kaya kay special friend na hindi masasabi-sabi sa friendship nya sa loob ng kanilang mahabang panahon na pagsasama dahil baka daw maapektuhan ang pakikipagkaibigan at iwasan sya.. Yung tipong pag may kasama si friendship na iba, nagseselos na wala naman sa lugar, pero syempre wag pahalata, kunyari happy sya for friendship.. Aba ! Oi lakasan mo ang loob at baka mamaya forever mong pagsisihan yan kaw rin. Minsan pa naman pareho kayong naghihintayan. . Hmmp! 

 

6. Born-to-be-one (Autistic) 

Eto yung nasa palad na ang pagiging single daw.. Walang reasons.. Basta lang nabuhay sya sa mundo na mag-isa at feeling nya mamatay sya sa mundo ng mag-isa.. Kesyo magmamadre o magpapari na lang.. Asa kang tatanggapin ka pa noh! 

 

5. Wrong Place 

May nakaranas na ba nito? Yung pakiramdam mo nasa ibang mundo ka. Yung ang nakakaharap mo e yung mga hindi mo gusto, yung mga hindi mo hinahanap. Alam mo yun? Halimbawa nasa ibang bansa ka, pero ang hinahanap mo e yung amoy ng nasa sariling bayan mo. O kaya naman e nasa sarili mong bayan ka, nasa normal na lipunan, pero ikaw ang abnormal at hindi mo kayang sabihin na abnormal din ang hanap mo kung ayaw mong ibitin ka nila ng patiwarik. 

 

4. Wrong Time  

Eto yung mga tao na sinasabi na "hindi pa ako ready e, bata pa kasi ako" o kaya naman "hindi pa ako handa sa panahong ito, wala pa ako kayang ipagmalaki.. " Yes meron pong ganyan.. Yung feeling nila may tamang panahon para sa love.. Awwwwwww.. Aba kelan yun? Pag uugod ugod ka na at yung time mo e bitin na? O baka naman pag pang out of time ka na? Oist, sugod lang ng sugod.. 

 

3. Si parents kasi! (photo by fremdamericanstudies.ning .com)

Yes, factor din ang komunidad na ginagalawan mo.. Una, ayaw pa ni mader o pader na magkaron ka kahit 22 anyos ka na at kelangan umabot ka muna raw ng 40 bago magkaroon ng gf/bf.. O kaya naman ikaw mismo! Takot sa sasabihin ni parents at ni kapitbahay na tsismosa sa magiging kasama mo.. Aba ikaw ba naman ang sabihan na "Alam mo hindi kayo bagay.. Langit at lupa kayo.." Awwwww.. Payo ko sayo, Pakialam nila diba? Palibhasa inggit!

   

2. Traumatic Experience ( photo by traumatreatment.eu)

Eto kalimitan ang reason ng marami. Ayaw ko na! Takot na ako mangyari pa ang nangyari dati! O diba ang drama ng layp? Yes, tama ka.. Eto yung dahil sa past relationship mo, e until na ayaw mo ng magkaroon at sinumpa mo na ata ang magmahal.. Dahil sa pinagpalit ka sa mas pangit, o kaya naman iniwan ka ng walang word na bye-bye, o dahil binugbog ka! Ano pa ba? Madami yan. wag na nating isa isahin at baka tumulo si tears.. Heheh! Gayunpaman, eto lang masasabi ko mga hija at hijo.. Iba't-iba ang lasa ng pag-ibig.. May mapait, may mapakla, may matamis at may maasim.. Aba mapalad ka at natikman mo ang iba't-ibang lasa nito.. Kaya ikaw, do not be afraid to fall in love again.. Malay mo sweetiness na ang malasahin mo next time.. E di panalo ka sa lotto.. Yan ang nagpapalakas sayo, yan ang bumubuhay sayo, ang pag-ibig.. Tsk! Drama! 

 

1. EX to the nth power (photo by missdorababy.blogspot.com)

Oi aminin!!! LOVE parin si ex kahit 1 or 2 yrs na ang nakakalipas. . May ganito naman.. Yung tipong ilang taon ang nakakalipas, hindi parin makalimutan si ex.. Yung pinagsamahan, yung tawanan, yung iyakan, at lahat ng nangyari sa inyo nung kayo pa.. Malungkot man at sa kung anumang kadahilanan, maganda man o masama ito, kelangan nyong magpaalam sa isa't isa.. YES, after a year sasabihin natin, im over him/her na, pero pag-usapan natin ang love at ang nangyari sa ating relastionship from the past, TADANNNNNNNNNNNNN, eto na, sya agad ang naalala mo.. At habang nagkukwento ka, ouch may kirot, o kaya may ngiti at may bumabagabag sa ating kalooban.. Ano kaya yun? AMININ mo na kasi MAHAL mo pa si EX.. Isa lang ang masasabi ko, well mahirap sya kalimutan, alam ko yan, pero open your heart and makipagdate ka, lumabas ka, at try to entertain someone.. Wag mo ikumpara si ex sa iba..

Whatever reason it will be, whatever your heart desires, just always remember that the greater person you become, the greater person you attract... Happy long cold weekend!

Relieve, Relax, Replenish: A 5-Day Vacation in Subic

It has been a month since I filed my 5-day vacation leave. My brother invited me supposedly to Thailand for all-expenses-paid-trip. It was so sad when it was cancelled but It's okay now that my brother bought himself a nice brand new car. I was so overwhelmed to see him happy. Anyway, so we just decided to arrange a party and celebrate his 48th birthday.. Like other parties, there were lot of foods, sweets, wines and everything. But above all these, we really enjoyed our bonding. 

1st Day (Saturday): The Arrival 

Fresh from a 4-hour travel from Quezon City-Bulacan-Olongapo, we took our merienda at T.G.I Friday's.    I realized that it has been such a long time when we last saw each other. I have so many stories, well my brother has too. While waiting for our merienda to be served, his boyfriend/friend (I really don't know their status??) told me that there will be a surprise later, he planned the TGIF staff to sing Happy Birthday(for my brother himself) after we have finished our food. I was able to capture those moments, since this once in a lifetime incident, I could have believed, happens only in Soap Operas, haay. He(my brother) was very happy, you know what guys indeed, simple things/efforts sometimes occupy a big space in our hearts.

2nd Day (Sunday)  : One Big Celebration

If I will be given a chance to compare him in one thing, that would be WINE. The longer it is fermented, the more it tastes better. That was him, the more years added in her life, the more sweeter and nicer person she becomes. Precisely, he's also the most generous person I have ever met and known, not because he's rich  but because he's kind who only loves companion in every place he goes. He's 48 already, who would say?? Many of his friends and batchmates attended the pary held at Ces't La Vie. 

That same day, his friend (I don't know his name) who happens to be the talent manager of Empress Schuck, Jed Madela, Rica of PBB, and many more checked in at Ces't La Vie Hotel, Empress Schuck occupied the room next to my room. Unfortunately, we did not meet. 

Speaking of the room where I stayed for 2 days and 3 nights, It was the most beautiful and most comfortable room I have ever experienced. There was nothing I could wish for, It exceeded my expectations. I ended up sleeping with a new friend, ooppsss before I tell anything, Indeed, Ces't La Vie (That was life) Twink!

3rd Day (Monday) : Bonding Day

At first, I have not gotten any clue for our activities that day and I thought it was just an ordinary day where we will dine in a very classy restaurant or sip a coffee in an american style coffee shop or perhaps check in  one of the most beautiful hotels in Subic. I was surprised when mama called me and say "Magdala ka ng pang swimming mo, ok?", I answered back, "Okay" in a controlled voice but deep inside I wanted to shout in my extreme tenor voice to relieve my overwhelming excitement. All the way from Olongapo, we traveled to Clark, When we got there, the receptionist told us that the water theme park was closed because Monday is their maintenance day and that the only open is the Hot Spring Area. 

Fontana was really more-than-beautiful resort at a very affordable price. I was able to take pictures so that you can have a view of Fontana.

We stayed there for almost 4 hours I guess. I was a little bit exhausted because I really lacked of sleep due to what happened last night (secret) LOL! When Kuya Wendell was driving, he suggested to mama to try  Top Tree adventure, so we decided to go there, suddenly It rained, much to my dismay It was really a heavy rain... OMG! the postponement would be the next bad news I will ever hear. At that time, I was praying, summoning God to stop the rain, after all It was now or just in my next visit chance..I rested for half an hour in my room, and then the phone ringed again. It was kuya Wendell who said "baba ka na tuloy tayo..." "YeSSSSsSssSSsssssssssssssssss!" I answered back. 

Since Mama was born with fear of heights (pardon my exaggeration), It was kuya Wendell and me who tried the rides, I chose those rides that was simple, because like mama I don't want to try those rides which make me feel like my body and soul parted. I chose Canopy Ride and Silver Surfer Ride. Canopy Ride

was just like a "Duyan" the only difference is that you're elevated far higher, moving through a compound machine. It was relaxing, and at the same time made you feel like the wind is a friend, trees are your saviors.. It brought out my nature-loving side.

Second is Silver Surfer Ride, which is extremely opposite of Canopy Ride, I misinterpreted the pictures, It was not simple, there's a momentum that will make you feel your heart left on the other side.  I was really shouting.., When I cannot bear that same feeling when you ride a ferris wheel or the Anchor's away of EK, I shouted manong who maneuvering the machine, "Ayoko na...!" Imagine my position here...

I ended up hugging that big pole at the center, not the grip. It was really nakakapanghina... If only I can say bad words here in my blog to extremely describe what I felt, I will... but since I don't want to influence badly, I will not.  haay...

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Ate Grece was not filed her leave that day she was not be able to be with us. So I invited her to sleep in my room. I got the chance to talk to her about my love, life, career and everything the same way to her. Before I checked out, we took pictures... tarararararmnnnnn...!

Sometimes, we are busy doing things which are occupying most of our time. We tend to forget people who needed most of our time most especially our family. We are very busy spending time with friends, in work and a lot of stuffs. In my case, I grew up in a broken family in which, we're banging up. but life is a matter of pulls back and forth... I know these efforts of visiting them twice a year or once a year is not enough but like I said at the very beginning, simple things and efforts sometimes occupy the biggest space in our hearts. :D Love Love Love!

An Open Letter to My Mom

Dear Nanay,

                   Everyone is against you. I know because you are just a second wife. The world turned its scrutinizing eyes on you, when you decided to be with tatay. Some of our relatives judged you because you are not as rich as they are, nor you cannot easily understand things as they can because you just came from nowhere. But despite all this, I want to thank you for everything, for all the hardships that you have gone through just to keep me in school. Yes, you have flaws I must say who does not have?

                   I admit, there was a time in my life that I doubted your love. I was a rebel. I hated you for being who you are because I know that I never deserved the life I have gone through before. I am sorry for that. I was ashamed of you that's why I have never invited friends for a wine party nor I have informed you when we have school gatherings and there's a need for parents participation. I am really sorry. No words can really describe how regretful I am for being such... 

                   Can you still remember when you were still teaching me how to stand and pee on my own and cleanse my asterisk (*) when I pooped ? Can you still remember when you were making sermon because I did not glance right and left when for the second time I crossed the street. Can you still remember my 7th birthday cake that I requested? Can you still remember those special times when I was still little and you were spoon-feeding everything to me? Those were the times that I will never forget. 

                  Now that I am living independently and weaving my life on my own, I understand you. All of your "pangaral", all of those I thought "pagbubunganga" , It's all true when you said that you know what is best for me. I know that I patched all these things up, when you attended my graduation day with a head held high because your son is Cum Laude. I was a better person because of you. I am sorry and I really really love you. I  always say it to you right? But since you are not used to what I am now (caring and sweet daughter/son ahhaha), you responded so little. But It's okay I know it's awkward.. hahaha so corny..

                    Although I told you that I loved you too, it wasn't enough for me.They were only words, only a throw-away, over-used phrase. So I hoped that somehow something inside you had always known that I loved you, that I loved you unconditionally and that it was impossible for me to not love you because you were my mother and there was part of me that is also a part of you-my heart :D Happy Mother's Day

                                                                                                                                                                               Nagmamahal,

Ang iyong bunso Masyong.

On Joining Biggest Loser Challenge...

Finally, I am a certified biggest loser challenger.. yesterday we took a lot of tests that would measure our current health condition like Body Mass Index, Fasting Blood Sugar, Cholesterol Blood Count and Medical consultations sponsored by Maxicare and ActiveLink. We also attended seminar about health and wellness which was prepared by Gold's Gym. 

Gold's Gym also sponsored this one of the newest ways on how to lose weight Zumba!. Of course I tried it, even if I will sweat a lot (Mind you, I still have a shift after.. yuck) .. 

Seriously, back when I was in college I always blame my genetic formation for being fat. Now that I'm matured, I wanted to show the world that being fat is a choice. I will take it as an opportune time for me not just to be healthy physically but also to be well-rounded individual. After all, Life is a lot easier when you are lighter.

First Time

One can say that the most unforgettable moments in our life are actually those first-time-experiences in which I believe is true. Some may never forget their first day in highschool, their first-crush encounter, first boyfriend ,First menstrual experience, first sexperience and many many more. That is why I also want to share this first time experiences. Last weekend, I was so occupied by many activities in which I was actually both a little bit upset and happy and satisfied.

First Major Hosting Experience

Hosting is probably the most wanted talent I wanted to have (pardon my redundancy). It is not really my first time to be a host. Back when I was in college, as much as I wanted to be socially active, I engaged myself with a lot of extra-curricular and social activities in school and in community. So I was requested many many times in debuts and parties and seminars. I have flaws yes, but I never felt  like-any-dumber until last Saturday in our Quarterly Town Hall Meeting. I was such a disappointment. But anyways, All of this cold-stuffs were vanished into the air when the Canadian-Group of Benefits Director and my Team Leader hugged me. I think most if not all of the audience enjoyed the event :D.

First Intramuros Escapade

Many of my friends if not all will probably raise their eyebrows upon reading this blog (OMG si Gelo/J-Lo,Masyong ngayon pa lang nakapunta sa Intramuros??/) O yes It was a trivia indeed. Prior to that major hosting job and a great buffet experience with Belore (Sana binabayaran ako ng Belore di ba??) Khat and I have long planned to go in Intramuros. I was really really fascinated  of how this walled city was built many years ago. Good thing that, It was well maintained and organized by our government. Of course we did some shots  

There were also tourists from other countries who are so interested in discovering more about places like Philippines. I remembered there was an asian man ( I don't know if he is Japanese or Korean) who approached me. I thought he wanted to make a pose with Khat but he just asked if I can take him a shot. I gave the camera to Khat since she was better than me when it comes to photography. After that, he bid goodbye. I called him "Mr. Somewhere down the road" because I know our roads will gonna cross again haha ...

We also visited the place where Rizal was incarcerated prior to his execution on December 30, 1898. 

Of Course here's my special tumbling shot.. Yahoo!

We ended up in a posh coffee shop nearby ..

First Ice Skating Experience

When I was a child I wanted what many other Filipino children wanted to be. I wanted to be blonde, blue-eyed, and white like Patricia Evangelista. It was a childhood dream to see outside my window not raining but snowing and then I will ice skate forever and ever. I realized that the first would cost me thousands of bucks... So I just keep on dreaming for the second and now it was granted...yipee 

Our first times will not always be as blissful and as happy as what we are expecting. If it is, then good for us. If it is not, better for us because at least we learned something. Learning is the glory that our first times contribute to ourselves, to our personality. With these things, life is indeed worth living for.